I think I have no love left for my brother. He is the most selfish, insecure, disgusting life form I've ever come across. I've read about characters like him, but I was yet to cross one and here he is. I don't understand were his selfishness stems from. All he cares about is himself and he actually has no feelings for his family. He has no respect for his family, love is out of the question but he doesn't even have a sliver bit of respect for his parents. I've told my mom to throw him out, but that is never going to happen and he would never leave.
In all honesty, his existence stiffens the air around me. My younger siblings are the one's who feel the back lash of his behavior. He hangs out with his stupid friends and come home, fights with my parents and we have to sit in one room and listen to the screams get louder and louder.
My dad's gone now and he's trying to be the king of the castle. Except no one really listens to what he says and I've always been the dominant one. Being a leader comes naturally to me and surprisingly, people tend to follow what I suggest - I never force my views down someone's throat I just suggest. That makes him so angry and he has to disagree with me even if he makes himself look like an absolute fool.
Another positive and negative: He's not taking drugs, I know and the negative is that this is the real him. Nothing is making him act in a certain way, he's just an awful person. I'm done trying to look at him through reflecting glass and trying to find a good part. I don't think he has that part in him.
This is not me having a temper tantrum or outburst. It's my helpless confession.
In all honesty, his existence stiffens the air around me. My younger siblings are the one's who feel the back lash of his behavior. He hangs out with his stupid friends and come home, fights with my parents and we have to sit in one room and listen to the screams get louder and louder.
My dad's gone now and he's trying to be the king of the castle. Except no one really listens to what he says and I've always been the dominant one. Being a leader comes naturally to me and surprisingly, people tend to follow what I suggest - I never force my views down someone's throat I just suggest. That makes him so angry and he has to disagree with me even if he makes himself look like an absolute fool.
Another positive and negative: He's not taking drugs, I know and the negative is that this is the real him. Nothing is making him act in a certain way, he's just an awful person. I'm done trying to look at him through reflecting glass and trying to find a good part. I don't think he has that part in him.
This is not me having a temper tantrum or outburst. It's my helpless confession.
You've been though a lot -- I was on vacation. I'm sorry about all the changes. You said in the past to let you know about more events in LA -- there's a LDM / reading on August 3, Saturday, Nerdist at Meltdown, 7522 Sunset Blvd. Sometimes it is good to get out and do something different, so consider it. Take care too!
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Hey there! I had a wonderful vacation in N California, spent a week in Bodega Bay, with family. The LDM last night was a hoot, and I did a bunch of cartoons at the after-party at "The Pikey". I'll post some of them after I redraw them. There will be another LDM in LA in September, at the end of September, I think...when I get the date I'll see about giving it to you sooner than the day before. :-) I've been getting up to LA for readings and things more often, so if anything else comes up I'll be sure to let you know. And keep on going, you're going through some big changes, but I keep doing things that make me happy and I always look to be creative whenever I can -- this seems to help me feel better for whatever challenges I am facing at the present moment. You have a great heart in you, and with courage you'll keep finding who you are and do what you can do to keep being you.
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