Soiree planning

  My parents are having a party this weekend. I think about one hundred people are coming over. I am not looking forward to it because....WELL BECAUSE OF  EVERYTHING! Our neighbor, Aunt Mona is helping out with the space setting. We live in an apartment because my dad is too lazy to move out of this building. Also we don't really want to move from here, we've lived here since my baby bro was born and now he's 13. Plus, the apartment is bigger than most houses, its an old building and the view is magnificent.

books Books BOOKS!!!!

18. Try getting up earlier in the mornings

 Got this out of the way and I got a stack of delicious books waiting for me! I can't wait to read them, first is the Haunted Presidents: Ghosts in the Lives of the Chief Executives by Charles A. Stansfield Jr. I'm actually vibrating with excitement! I haven't read a decent book in along time. Off I go!

 

Actual/Real music

I found this on YouTube and am I glad.

This live orchestra actually made my heart soar. Beautiful, just absolutely beautiful. I'll trade all the music in this decade for just this one song. Listening to the cello and violins make me feel so exhilarated, elated, free...ets,.  I would love to hear a live orchestra perform. 

 

Perfect weekend!

  
   This weekend I saw 50/50 starring Joseph Gordon Levitt. Awesome movie, I loved it even though it was kind of depressing. I'm a sucker for happy endings with a touch of realism. I had really decent weekend, I did absolutely nothing. Just watched episodes of an old sitcom, 3rd Rock from the Sun, the Simpsons and played Uno with my mom, sister and little bro. My mom is wicked when she plays cards and she is a sore loser. I love weekends like this even my stupid brother Orson couldn't ruin it. 

  My relationship with my brother has evolved into something I never thought it would. I feel relieved when he's not at home, most of the time I feel a strong, bitter hatred towards him. Yet I still love him more than anything, he's still my precious little uggiee. My sister is four years younger than him and she despises him. She can't wait to see the back of him, she wishes he would just move out.  I hate that my family has become like this, we were always close. We'd fight and argue, but we'd always make up by the end of the day.

  Sometimes I see siblings who don't even talk to each other anymore. I never thought we'd be the ones to head down that path. I'm trying my best by being patient with him, I don't know if that has helped or made it worse. 

 

Muse - musing?

   They say that every writer needs to have a muse, do I need one, as well? Will I feel inspired and write something mind blowing then? Most of the time I feel the world is my muse,  experience and existence is a form of muse. Sometimes I look at nature and become inspired to a point where my mind is exploding with new born thoughts. 

Authors often see someone and crown them as their muses' and then they proceed to create a master piece. Can you really be inspired by the presence, existence and appearance  of one individual? Perhaps its not the muse that causes you to become inspired, but you're driven by your need to impress the muse?

  Bottom line, a muse is a must? or not? I feel a sense disconnection arise when this topic is brought forth.  Many times, I mention the fact that I'm a writer to people they take a step backward. Once I was told that writing was a phase people like "me" go through and that I would get over it. Ha! Not likely!  Apparently, I've been labeled as " too insensitive" to be a writer. I get it, creative individuals have a sensitive side, doesn't mean they are enslaved to their emotional needs. I've never been a leaky cauldron and I'm not likely to be.

 I'm majoring in business, HR management to be precise because that position would be stable source of income for me. Writers die hungry and homeless if they rely on their talent to feed them. No matter, what I do in life I always refer to myself as a writer, inside I'm a writer.  Anyone who has a problem with that should discuss that with the on going monologue in my head.

Rule 20: Stop beginning comfortable

Rule 20: Stop beginning comfortable. Throw out comfy clothes, so you have no choice but to wear stylish clothes at home. You'll stop resembling a hobo.

Revise updated list

1. Increase GPA from 3.6 to 4.00
2. Learn to be more confident when following directions and doing math.
3. practice Math and Painting - don't you dare let your GPA drop because you suck at math!!! 
4. Go on a date - mom keeps asking if I'm lesbian, need to shut her up.
5. Kiss a boy - didn't kiss a single boy in 2012 - shame on you!
6. Gain weight - screw people who say its so hard to loose weight, try gaining weight with fast metabolism and over active energy!!!
7. Go out with friends every week.
8. Explore LA - for GODSSAKE! you've lived here all your life.  Do you feel pleased when tourist come here and learn your hometown better than you? Do you? DO YOU???
9. Stop drinking eggnog and blogging - you don't even like eggnog. 
10. Loose the celibacy status and just do something. puh-lease!!!!!
11. Become more organized - working on this already good for you!
12. Stop obsessing over details, go with the flow
13. NO obligation towards anyone - except the Mom and the "two minions."        
14. Pick a simple,everyday hairstyle and make it permanent.  
15. Do something risky - meaning unlike you, without over thinking every little detail - like kissing a cute boy without any reason.
16. Look for a job - being a tutor is the only job you've ever had! Even if you don't take a job go for the interviews.
17.Keep adding to this list, be adventurous!

18. Try getting up earlier in the mornings

19. Appreciate simple things, for instance the view from my window!!
20. Stop beginning comfortable - no more hobo look - this is the hardest, I love hobo me - its the only time I have unconditional adoration direct to myself.

 

new appreciate simple things

 

Rule number 19 - appreciate simple things, for instance the view from my window!!! 

#16 and 2 outta the way

 I've been submitting my resume every where, applying for jobs I feel I'm suitable for. It's only the 4th of Jan, got over 7 responds, went for two interviews today. Both interviews went really well, I got one job right away but I don't think I have enough experience and education to be bank manager - yet! I applied for the assistant position but they offered me the manager position instead. I didn't decline because I couldn't handle it, but because I didn't want to commit to full time position while I'm still studying. No matter what position is given to me I know I can handle. If I'm good enough to supervise a part of it, I'm good enough to supervise all of it. Plus, I looked super fab in my business attire to day. It's  true what they say, "If you look good, you feel good."

Number 16 and 2, job and directions. I'm going to get number 7 out of the way tonight! I'm so proud of my self!

Adding number:
18. Try getting up earlier in the morning, get things out of the way before noon. 

Got this outta the way today, too!

Creative streak