I've managed to turn everyone against me. When my dad yelled at me, he was angry and I know him he doesn't mean anything by it. I wrote him that mean email, even though it was the truth, I don't think anyone hurt him like I did. My mom has been crying all day, my dad is talking to me but he won't look at me. I called him selfish and truly, he's not. He's one of the nicest guys in the world. What have I done? I always over think everything I do, but yesterday I forced myself not to over think and just send the email. I've become one those people who hurt him. I'm miserable, so miserable. I don't think I've ever felt like this in my life.
I'm sorry you are in distress. Stick to the truth. Tell it like it is. When things get rough, or tough, this is the ultimate refuge. Feelings of disappointment and upsettedness fade, the truth of what really is happening always comes out. No situation, no matter how uncomfortable, is fixed in stone. I think you have been being honest, so stick with the honesty. It does matter. Hang in there. If you have a sympathetic friend, or friends, hang out with them and don't isolate.
ReplyDeleteHonesty doesn't feel good, in fact it feels very bad. I feel small, very small.
ReplyDeleteWe are such small creatures. We'll feel better, I believe, if we keep being willing to be honest and learn what it is like.
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