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I'm still trying to get my family tree straightened out. 

My mom is Bulgarian and Turkish.

My dad is Indian.

So we are Bulianish??

 

I sometimes hate the people I'm related to, I wish they'd just shove it! Of-course I never have the guts to say that to them but that doesn't me I don't think it. Yet I love them, it would kill if something bad happen to them.

Tradition and family

Twice a year I put myself through this...

Reality really sucks!

Ah! How I love to read! I think reading is responsible for the fact that I think too much and that I've gained unreal expectations from life.

 

 

 

 

I hate reality shows! I really do, I don't get the point of them. I watch the telly to get away from "reality", why the hell would I want to watch that crap? That is why I watch "The Simpsons" and I love every moment of each episode. I love how it begins in one direction, takes another direction and ends up in a completely different destination. 

Simpsons show aired for the 1st time in the year I was born, makes me feel even more special. Also I was born on April 1st, Fools Day(supposedly Bart Simpsons bday!) and my extended family thought my young parents were playing a prank on them. No one showed up to the hospital until late afternoon and I was born at dawn! Imagine that! Nobody would believe I was born!

Being considered a joke from the moment you're born!

1940s and Moi

You know, I just realized I'm like 30 year old man from the 1940's.

Let's go down the list:

1. I listen to instrumental music, old songs.
2. I'm er...very proper - in a gentlemanly sort of way. Not a lady from that time, but a nice, decent gentleman- who would defend a lady.
3. I don't curse/cuss but when push comes to shove I can  tell you off(come near my car and see what happens).
4. In the evenings; I like to listen to music, read old books and movies. Instead of going out an getting drunk like a normal person.
5. I write beautifully, if I do say so <<<-----also I say things like that.
6. Love old style - hair, make-up, style, attitudes....
7. Love the male movie stars from the 40s, now they looked like real men. Not like today(again I sound like a grandma), where I have to compete with a guy for mirror time.


Why a 30 year man? Because according to this century standards - a 23 year old today = a 30 year old man back then. 
We're much more progressed, we do not waste anytime experiencing things. 

Would I want to go to that time?....Hell no! I love indoor plumbing way too much, 24 hours of water. Go to a 3rd world country and you'll understand.

Mommy loves me so very much

I'm feeling pretty good, mid-terms are over. I only feel like I screwed up on test, other four tests I know I did very well on them. 

Unlike most girls I feel guilty when I spend money on myself, but I do love to spend it on my babies(my siblings). Anyways my mom bought me a new pair of awesome leather boots!!! 

I love it when mother goes into tigress mode for me. I've in the dog house lately at home, family/relatives drama. Anyways I've been crashing physically with the strain and drama and school, too.  I blamed my mom for all my misery and became a but melodramatic. Well she went on a guilt trip and she's been snapping at anyone who even breathes  loudly around me. Love, love, love my dear mother. 

I still feel guilty because my parents are feeling the backlash of my decision. Our extended family have become ...whats the proper word, cool? - towards them. It'll blow over in a few months but I really don't like my parents to be the hot seat.

In all honesty my parents are really decent and sort of naive people. That is probably why I'm so aggressive and protective when it comes to them or my siblings. They did their best and honestly they did do their very best. Yet sometimes I know they wish they had brought me up a little differently.  

Sometimes when things get ugly, some words escape that never be hidden again. I like who I am but sometimes I wonder, am I the wrong one?

Just plain RIDicuLos

Sometimes the strangest things happen, sometimes I contribute to the weird factor and sometimes I do nothing and just wonder - why me?

For instances, last night I blew my nose and passed out. Just blew and my nose and fainted! Blacked out, out cold - so ridiculous. I'm really petite so I'm kinda of the joke in the family. My two brothers and one sister, who are all younger than me are bigger and taller than me. They thought it was a freaking, hilarious riot that I fainted after blowing my nose.

I'm one those people that the most ridiculous things happen to. I feel like God is sitting up somewhere and watching my sitcom and saying, "haha, she screwed up again."

A few months ago I was watching some reality show(which I hate - will elaborate more on it later) and in that the lady kept saying "eat me." Instead of googling the phrase like a normal person, I just connected it with Alice in Wonderland, you know the cookies and all? Anyways that phrase was stuck in my head, I was the store and I kind of got in argument with and "acquaintance." My clever, loud and witty comeback was "Eat me" and he grinned and said "gladly." I'm so glad I'm anonymous here and not in store with pin drop silence and everyone's eyes on me.

RAIN!!! I'm sick and happy

I've been waiting for fall  since....er ..last fall. I love fall! My absolute favorite season except, this time its raining right in the beginning of fall, in California, LA!

Anyways, I'm not being able to enjoy the weather.
I'm super sick, with a super cold.

Next week is mid-term week and I can't even hold my head up properly. Luckily, today was my last class for the week. I had to stay in school all day from 9 am to 4 pm.

I'll nurse this cold all weekend and study and watch cartoons - The Simpsons, of-course. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFbjE7NFmUI&noredirect=1

Freaky song, my art teacher's radio was playing this in the afternoon and it started to rain.

Mellow yellow

I had nice day today, just relaxed. I'm really grateful when I have days like this. Started my second painting for art class, it's looking pretty good if I do say so myself.

 

Although I gotta I keep staring at this pic, it's messin with my head.

Once a month...BAD DAY!

This is not cool, I had the worse luck today. I nearly got hit by two cars today, couldn't sleep and I failed miserably in the test I took last week - got the results today. One good thing the professor let me re-take it.  Also by braces broke and its stuck in my mouth AND my contacts expired - so red eyes!!!

I've been so disappointed in myself, how could I screw up the that test? it was only 20 questions and multiple choice!!!! - its different that I always mess up multiple choice but it was pretty easy.

I'm not talented, my brain is my only asset! Why on gods green earth didn't I study harder? 

I think I'm meant to have one totally screwed up day once a month, right? just once right?