Couldn't fall asleep, but I eventually did fall into an exhausted sleep. I didn't wake up 'til 11 am and before my eyes open I didn't regret anything. Unlike many people I never wake-up confused about where I am. Mind starts working the moment I start rousing. I always know where ever I an and what took place the previous day. I don't wake up disoriented, I have bad eye sight so I might think one of my brothers is the other one (not my fault they they keep growing).
Just like that, the moment my mind blinked awake - it said," I don't regret it." Just like that I didn't regret it. I do want to pick-up my dad and cuddle him like a baby, but I haven't because he did need hear what I wanted to say. Harsh as it may have seemed, but it got his attention and I know he's thought it over. He's not angry or passive-aggressive, it's my mom who was making me feel awful. She's done with her moment, it's all gone back to normal. I think my dad will bring this up someday and I'll tell him why.
Also I'm not going to run damage control all the time. I'm allowed to have my moments and those unfortunate, stupid bad days.
Just like that, the moment my mind blinked awake - it said," I don't regret it." Just like that I didn't regret it. I do want to pick-up my dad and cuddle him like a baby, but I haven't because he did need hear what I wanted to say. Harsh as it may have seemed, but it got his attention and I know he's thought it over. He's not angry or passive-aggressive, it's my mom who was making me feel awful. She's done with her moment, it's all gone back to normal. I think my dad will bring this up someday and I'll tell him why.
Also I'm not going to run damage control all the time. I'm allowed to have my moments and those unfortunate, stupid bad days.
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