Mid-life crisis and judgement!

I'm going through mid life crisis!!! I'm going to turn 25 next year, quarter of a century makes a girl think! twenty five is mid twenties and I haven't accomplished anything. 

New list time:

1. Increase GPA - YOU WANT USC TO WANT YOU! I want USC so badly sometimes, I don't think I've ever wanted anything so badly in my life. If I don't get USC, I really don't know what I will do. 

2.Color your hair in different color WITH highlights (something that's not boring 'ole me).

3. Pierce belly button - I have a great body other than my tweezers legs, I should do something cool with it.

4. Stop apologizing - for god-sakes please stop apologizing. I apologize 5 times in row, awful habit - must break. 

5. No pressure regarding interacting with other primates, but get out and mingle once in a while. Its not so bad.

its looks better

My brother got a criminal subpoena in the mail for possession. My parents have him under house arrest, so far its been 4 days without him stepping out. Let's see how long this goes on before everything starts shaking, again. The fights were amazing, combine both my parents together and they can shout the house down.

why write

  I write here because I need somewhere to sort my thoughts. I've always kept a notebook where I used to pour my thoughts, my feelings into. I don't have a lot time to time to sort one issue at a time, I just think things over while I go about in my day. Thats the reason why I've always had a place to store my thoughts. I can't really talk to my parents because they are part of the reason why there is conflicts in my mind. Also, I'm a sorter and fixer. I need everything clarified so I can tackle one issue at a time. I talk to my friends, but  sometimes that isn't enough. Not because someone is not helpful, I just like my thoughts to take form in physical words.

 I decided to start this blog because I spend so much time on the computer, working or studying and reading. Plus, this seemed much safer than keeping a notebook lying around with my thoughts in it. 

Why I feel the study need to justify myself? - because this blog make me look extremely self-centered. It's all about me? You bet!

Dad is back

My dad came back yesterday, his leg is broken and he seems like a guest.

emotions rollin'

 Well, my self-esteem is suffering. I'm not pleased with my appearance for some reason and it won't go away. I've realized I look really boring, dark hair, dark eyes - boring! So boring!
I never wanted to color my hair, but I'm starting to think I should. I like my hair, I feel it's my best asset but its time I switch it up.