I started this blog. I started it because I was having a really bad day and I had completed my traditional venting diary. I'm still venting, that's one the things I'm good at. My life hasn't titled upwards, in fact it slid a fewer more inches. My dad is not here it's been over two months since he left to go for ....something. My mom's eldest sister has cancer and my mom is sliding into a depression. Also, ironically my accounting teacher hasn't been showing up to school and it turns out he has a tumor in his brain.
One thing I've learned is that I'm much stronger than I'll ever give myself credit for. So instead of criticizing myself, I'm going to make list of things I like about myself.
1. I'm not malicious - I'm sarcastic even rude but I don't have malice in me. I'm may even be gossip, but not with a malicious intent.
2. When I make up my mind to do something, no matter how impossible it might seem I do it. Someone told me I was a stern task master, I kinda liked that.
3. I love completely, no partial love. When I love someone it's with all my heart.
4. Loyal - I'm fiercely loyal.
Hey -- you have more things you like about yourself, and things that are special about you, than 4. I'll give you a few:
ReplyDelete5. You're courageous, like in telling the truth, even when it hurts and it might not be in your self interest to do so
6. You believe in the Truth
7. You're imaginative and you follow your creativity
8. You apply yourself to things you don't want to do and you complete them above expectations
9. You look to take away drama rather than looking for it
10. You're funny and you help other people laugh
11. You're spontaneous and brave enough to be this way
12. You're very kind, and compassionate
13. You keep learning new things and you're always willing to learn every day
14. You're searching for Love, Truth, and Spirituality -- and how this means for YOU and nobody else
... Those are my impressions!
CM
ah jeez! You are so lucky I don't know where you live, I'd forcefully marry you - even though I don't believe in marriage!
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I'm going to keep this list and look at it every time my world starts to tilt. Thank you.
LOL -- You're incredibly sweet and kind -- you will find more and more people all around you all the time, who will give you this kind of encouragement that naturally comes out of me to you. Keep opening the door and more people and experiences come though your door if you welcome them in, or people feel they can knock, call, or come by, and you'll be there, and lovely and interesting things will continue to happen. Keep seeing the good things you do, that is great! You have your list and look at it when you need to be reminded, to keep from isolating, or getting stuck in round after round of 'thinking'. Add to your list! You started the good list, I helped you add to it by giving you feedback, add to it a bit more. Remember you are soooo much! I have my own list too, that I help myself remember the good stuff, and why I will continue to be courageous, willing, and kind to let people in the door of my life! So thanks thanks thanks for the response! I know what you mean. :-)
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