Mommy loves me so very much

I'm feeling pretty good, mid-terms are over. I only feel like I screwed up on test, other four tests I know I did very well on them. 

Unlike most girls I feel guilty when I spend money on myself, but I do love to spend it on my babies(my siblings). Anyways my mom bought me a new pair of awesome leather boots!!! 

I love it when mother goes into tigress mode for me. I've in the dog house lately at home, family/relatives drama. Anyways I've been crashing physically with the strain and drama and school, too.  I blamed my mom for all my misery and became a but melodramatic. Well she went on a guilt trip and she's been snapping at anyone who even breathes  loudly around me. Love, love, love my dear mother. 

I still feel guilty because my parents are feeling the backlash of my decision. Our extended family have become ...whats the proper word, cool? - towards them. It'll blow over in a few months but I really don't like my parents to be the hot seat.

In all honesty my parents are really decent and sort of naive people. That is probably why I'm so aggressive and protective when it comes to them or my siblings. They did their best and honestly they did do their very best. Yet sometimes I know they wish they had brought me up a little differently.  

Sometimes when things get ugly, some words escape that never be hidden again. I like who I am but sometimes I wonder, am I the wrong one?