The tear within the seam of my soul keeps growing and I don't know how.
The hollowness keeps showing and I don't know why.
This loss of longing makes me shy.
The fear of not wanting makes my existences cry.
The hollowness keeps showing and I don't know why.
This loss of longing makes me shy.
The fear of not wanting makes my existences cry.
My teacher Lama Tharchin is a nice person, so happy and kind. When I told him about the hollowness and sadness I feel sometimes in myself, he said it was okay, and not to be too upset about it. I see we live in a place where desire comes into us naturally, it is normal to desire and want things, and these desires come and go of their own accord. I don't have to worry about them, some desires come true and others do not. If I am not desiring, that is okay too. I will always be feeling desire or non-desire, what makes a difference for me is I fall back to being trusting in the process -- that more will be revealed as I go along, and the Universe keeps me on a 'need to know' basis for my own protection and ultimate happiness. If I feel something I feel it, shyness, happiness, sadness, not knowing why, not knowing how -- I experience it and I don't turn away from it. I know in everything I experience, I'll gain something from it that will help me along to wherever I am supposed to be going. Whoever I meet and whatever I do, we are all in this together to encourage each other to grow. love, and have hope.
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ReplyDeleteI need a mentor, I'm the one who who always takes a teachers role. Apparently, I need someone to guide me, too.
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