Tuesday was my math test and I felt really good about. I didn't get anytime to practice it but right before the test the teacher was called away. I had a twenty minute review session and I learned whatever I could by myself. I soared through the test and I was stuck on the last problem, when suddenly on of the ladies' in the class got up to leave. As she was leaving she stumbled against my table and dropped her workout/scratch paper sheet. I lifted it and tried to hand it to her but she winked at me to keep the paper. I got my answer and all my other answers resembled hers, double joy.
Now about my victory, I'll get my grade today at noon. I feel like even though I'd done everything right when I get a good grade she'll get the credit. Technically, what I did was cheating but just but I did everything right except the last problem. I worked everything on my own except the last question, so it nots bad right?
I think too much, what I should focus on is getting a good grade in this class and not on cleansing my soul. I notice I go through life trying to justify everything I do.
Wednesday was a soul dampening disappointment. I embarrassed myself in front of myself. I'm not ready to share, I'm wincing just thinking about it.
Now about my victory, I'll get my grade today at noon. I feel like even though I'd done everything right when I get a good grade she'll get the credit. Technically, what I did was cheating but just but I did everything right except the last problem. I worked everything on my own except the last question, so it nots bad right?
I think too much, what I should focus on is getting a good grade in this class and not on cleansing my soul. I notice I go through life trying to justify everything I do.
Wednesday was a soul dampening disappointment. I embarrassed myself in front of myself. I'm not ready to share, I'm wincing just thinking about it.
"I should focus on getting a good grade...and not cleansing my soul." Nice. Sounds to me like a good way to go. We are allowed to simplify -- I call that being 'discerning'. You have a good heart, and you don't need to question about that. Next time, just do better. Thats all. : - )
ReplyDeleteThanks! I need to do better or I'll have to place myself in the corner of shame.
ReplyDeleteOh, that is okay -- we all need to be aware, so we do better next time. I get in the 'pentalty box' all the time, usually by being assuming things. I find I can do better automatically next time if I relax and take it easy -- I prepare as much as I can, but then I have to surrender whne the work is done and let it be. Keep at it! You're fabulous! : - )
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